Eating/Weight/Vacation/Exercise

The ability to cross my legs is so fascinating to me that I took a picture.. LOL
Seriously I often wonder now how many times I tried to cross my legs in the past and couldn't because it just seems like a natural way to sit.. I sit down and BOOM I cross my legs.

Another thing is how bony I am.. I mean I am not skin and bones I still have fluff but I'm working on it.. Though I have obviously loss my ass cushion because sitting on the floor hurts my ass, where as before it didn't.. Also my arms are skinnier, my feet have gone done 2 shoe sizes (WOW!!) I never would have believed being over weight affected your shoe size.

My Jeans are a size 16 and I can feel them getting loose so soon I will be in a 14... Fingers crossed! I am 40lbs from my Goal weight and the main thing affecting that right now is working out.. I do ZERO exercise I know I should everyday I say I will, I need a Drill Sergeant .. LOL maybe just an accountability buddy but it has to be like a person to go to the Gym with because those online accountability systems just do not work for me. I know I should do it for myself why do I lack the motivation for it?

Is it I am intimidated by the Gym the fit people, not knowing how to use a machine properly? I think it is that and the fear of being in workout clothes in public..

I know I know it shouldn't matter but it does it always has and always will..

** Side Note **

I went to an All Inclusive resort in Jamaica for  7days ... I know I didn't always make the best choices due to what was available at the resort and sometimes I ate til I needed to puke (bad bad me) ... I did drink alcohol a couple of times but it was all too sweet and just too gross... Not a big alcohol person to begin with..

One of the best meals I had at the resort I had to pay an additional $20 for
was the Filet Mingon oh my goodness so DELICIOUS..

The last 2 nights at the Resort I had a steak that had Gorgonzola cheese on top of it, again delicious!

Other than that my food ran to the Hamburger or a small portion of Jerk Chicken w/out the kill you because it's so hot jerk sauce..